Soul Searching
Yes, It was pretty much time for a new Blog I must admit. I don't know that I have much in particular to say, but, typing and writing is a great way to vent, so I'm doing it.
Well, let's see... I'm just going to spill my soul... well parts of it I suppose.. but not all. A while ago I was just having one of those days. I really did try to look at the good, but the rest just hurt too much to look past at the time. I was thinking, and probably talking to my roomates ( bless their hearts for listening to me blab all the time) about things, and one comment led to another... and somehow I started listing off these things that were a part of me that I'd lost sight of. Like... for starters.... Singing! I absolutely love to sing... I love music, I love belting as if I were this amazing show tunes person, and sometimes I even do a little dance to go along with it. Scary huh! But, I was trying to remember the last time I just really sang Freely... and it's been a while. Another thing was dancing. I still dance occasionally, but I don't ever go to a dance with my buds and just have a night of completely forgetting about the world, and what everybody thinks of you. I get so mad at myself when I realize that yes, I do get all caught up with what other people think of me. And sometimes, this prevents me from doing the things that my heart longs for, and saying the things that I do feel passionate about. Essentially I'm then living a lie right? I mean, honestly, how am I ever going to be happy around the people that I surround myself with, if I'm not my complete self when I'm around them? It's just not possible.
(You know what Bugs? That the tab key doesn't work! Don't they realize how... silly that is... ? sorry... not to rage or anything.... Ü )
Well, those are really only the minor details of my soul searching... but I just needed to get some of it out.. hmm.. I feel a little better now... maybe I'll have to write another today... or maybe even tomorrow.... whatever.
Well, I haven't seen most of you guys forever! I should probably work on changing that eh!? It's basically all my fault.... so I'll work on it! I hope that you're all doing peachily! Or Pearily... Oh guys remember this .... "If you don't say yes... "Olive", but just "Pearily"! Oh - the good ole' days!
Well, let's see... I'm just going to spill my soul... well parts of it I suppose.. but not all. A while ago I was just having one of those days. I really did try to look at the good, but the rest just hurt too much to look past at the time. I was thinking, and probably talking to my roomates ( bless their hearts for listening to me blab all the time) about things, and one comment led to another... and somehow I started listing off these things that were a part of me that I'd lost sight of. Like... for starters.... Singing! I absolutely love to sing... I love music, I love belting as if I were this amazing show tunes person, and sometimes I even do a little dance to go along with it. Scary huh! But, I was trying to remember the last time I just really sang Freely... and it's been a while. Another thing was dancing. I still dance occasionally, but I don't ever go to a dance with my buds and just have a night of completely forgetting about the world, and what everybody thinks of you. I get so mad at myself when I realize that yes, I do get all caught up with what other people think of me. And sometimes, this prevents me from doing the things that my heart longs for, and saying the things that I do feel passionate about. Essentially I'm then living a lie right? I mean, honestly, how am I ever going to be happy around the people that I surround myself with, if I'm not my complete self when I'm around them? It's just not possible.
(You know what Bugs? That the tab key doesn't work! Don't they realize how... silly that is... ? sorry... not to rage or anything.... Ü )
Well, those are really only the minor details of my soul searching... but I just needed to get some of it out.. hmm.. I feel a little better now... maybe I'll have to write another today... or maybe even tomorrow.... whatever.
Well, I haven't seen most of you guys forever! I should probably work on changing that eh!? It's basically all my fault.... so I'll work on it! I hope that you're all doing peachily! Or Pearily... Oh guys remember this .... "If you don't say yes... "Olive", but just "Pearily"! Oh - the good ole' days!
posted by Babs @ 8:43 AM
5 Comments:
At Thursday, February 09, 2006,
deb said…
Teri, I think that we should have a dance party, where we can all just jump around like crazy mad people. Maybe we will listen to some insane pop band and belt it out. Might as well kill two birds with one stone. that is a very morbid saying...
At Friday, February 10, 2006,
Nikki said…
I don't really like the idea of killing any birds, but I do agree that we need to have a dace party. Maybe at Ali's house so we can be as loud as we want (I'm sure the people downstairs won't mind). Maybe Micquel could even play some Phantom of the Opera and we can pretend we're Sarah Brightman. Sounds like the best time of my life.
At Friday, February 10, 2006,
Babs said…
I love that as I read both of these comments, the best pictures ever came to mind! Especially the jumping up and down.. strumming air guitars... head banging... wow.
Oh yes, and then the broadway musical image came... that one was the best... Can you imagine us all routinely singing and dancing... somehow that episode of Looney Toons came to mind where that frog keeps singing and dancing... with his top hat and cane. We could pull it off! Does anyone know what I'm talking about?
At Friday, February 10, 2006,
deb said…
yes I do know. It is before some movie...I can't remember which one exactly, but it is funny.
At Friday, February 10, 2006,
smart alec said…
I do not know about the bugs bunny, but the rest sounds very excellent. It has been too long Teri, too long. I don't even know if I remember what you look like...oh wait, yes, there it is, but it's getting hazy.
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