My New "Extended" Family...

Yesterday was just like any ordinary day, but for some reason this thought seemed so incredibly profound to me. I was just sitting in Matt's apartment and observing things that were going on. Matt was sitting on the couch with his computer on his lap. Daren was sitting in "his chair" correcting these history essays. And I don't believe that anyone else there was at this precise moment. But as you all probably know, yesterday was a pretty drizzly day. And for some reason I wasn't feeling very great. It was either that, or it was so hot in their apartment that it created the illusion of my being sick. Anyways, my head felt as if it would erupt at any given moment, so I drifted and started thinking of home. I thought about the good old days when I'd be sick and my "mommy" would let me stay home from school, and say in her sympathetic and concerned voice that she hoped I was okay and that she loved me before she headed off to do her work and other various routines. Sometimes on those days she'd even head to work late so she'd keep me company while I vegged out in my pajamas and a million comfy, cozy blankets, while watching a favorite movie in my desperate attempt to warm up a bit. And then, that memory triggered the other memories I have of coming home from a long Autumn day of school and play when I lived in Minnesota. I'd run to the living room and cuddle up next to the heater once again striving for warmth.
And then it hit me. I just thought, "Wow, Teri. You're not at home anymore. You can't cuddle up to your daddy when you had a rough day. And your mommy isn't gonna make you soup when you're sick and take care of you."

Ultimately, it was a little depressing. I realize this is all part of growing up, and I'm pretty much a big baby. But remember those good old days when your parents were always there for you (physically that is... they're still there for ya, but you know what I mean).
Then I further contemplated in these thoughts. I thought, "Wow, Teri. You're all grown up." Similar thoughts yes, but my angle was a little different this time. It was wierd to know that yeah, I am all big and bad and living on my own. Now I'm living the life that for so long i've been waiting for, and some how it just now came to me. So long I've looked at my siblings and thought that they were so old, and I couldn't wait until I got to live like some of them. And there I was, at Matt's apartment, living a life of my own in the company of my great, new found friends. Then when Nick got home, he opened the door stating his first thoughts as he stepped inside. "I had the coolest feeling when I walked in. It just felt like home. Like not just an apartment, but home.". I know that I don't live there or anything, but it was true. Maybe the heat got to him too, but somehow I don't think so.
So, I've come to the conclusion of just how great college life is. So many people are away from their immediate families and are getting to know eachother. Eventually you become so close to these people that they become like you're own family. Those people that you get excited to see and talk to when you get back from a long, monotonous day at school, give college that homey feel that you'd grown accostomed to feeling when at home with your family. It's so reassuring that life gets better and better with time in so many new aspects. It's great all the things that a person can learn to love. It's such a great feeling when you can share your life with all your roomates and friends, and that they feel comfortable sharing theirs as if you're (once again) family.
Well, that was my profound thought of yesterday... it just made me feel all warm and gooey inside. Haha, I love that feeling. When you're at church and something just hits ya with it... or you see a child smile at you, grinning from ear to ear... you see an old couple holding hand who look like they're just as in love as they probably were when they were young...christmas eve with your family...Matt's journal entries...Matt :0) Anyways, I'm sure it's completely different for everyone, but yeah.
Well, that's all for now. I wonder if you all know what I'm talking about... I could just be crazy, but it makes perfect sense to me. Alrighty *

* Me *